so i’ve been beginning to put more of my thoughts about my weight out onto my regular personal tumblr.  I’ve began to feel more comfortable with my followers on there that i know personally. and don’t care as much if they happen to read it.

back when i made this blog i was terrified at the thought of them knowing any of my personal thoughts about myself, the way i look, the way i feel, etc

so all my followers here should follow my other blog

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i’m actually going to try posting more on this blog to, because i realize i have be rather inactive.  and i know following blogs dedicated purely to weightloss is helpful, so i am not going to delete this.

i also still need this for things that again, i am terrified of people i know personally of knowing.

i love you all <3

Yeah so when I get home… I’m pulling out that blade. Nobody can stop me. Parents got me on edge. “you are not responsible” responsible my ass. You can please shut the fuck up

I’ve been forced to eat 3 meals a day for the past 2 days and I already can’t stand it. Actually it hasn’t even been a full two days yet. I can’t stand it. I want to go back to just one meal.
I feel so uncomfortably full…

Vacation with the parents is a living hell. I don’t have any privacy or space to myself. This morning my one request is that they don’t wake me up. And what do they do? Wake me up with their talking! You can talk in your own room. When the sofa bed is pulled out that is my room where I am sleeping. You dont need to be talking in there…
Even worse than that is the fact that I have to eat 3 meals a day, everyday. It makes me feel way too stuffed. And I just want to vomit.